Making Decisions

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Good morning guys, hope everyone had a great long weekend, Tim and I decided to stay close to home and hung out it with friends and family and got some stuff done around the place, I just have to mention that Monday we spent 4 hours waxing the vehicle... lots of fun lol

What did all of ye get up too, did anyone make it to Pride? Sadly we missed it, partly cause  I have a hard time wanting to go downtown these days due to the ridiculous traffic... Like honestly, it's bloody insane, it drives me bananas!!  I can leave the house in a good mood and by the time I make it downtown I'm ready to freak out. Just last week I was run off the road by a big charter bus and pushed into oncoming traffic... I was actually driving on the wrong side of the road and just about got into a head-on collision, let's just say I was shook up and very lucky nothing bad happened. So we decided to NOT head downtown this weekend to keep our piece of mind in a good place lol.

Something I wanted to talk to you all about, is something that I really struggle with, which is decision making, this is something I really struggle with. When I say I have a hard time making decisions,  I'm not talking about what I'm going to eat for dinner or what TV show to watch, I'm speaking about life decisions, decisions that have the ability to change the course of your life, decisions that can ultimately lead to a great life or a bad life (that's a little dramatic, but ye get the point).

Whenever I'm facing a "Big" life-changing decision, I tend to carry it around with me and it usually affects my day-to-day until I make the decision. This is probably cause I'm not one to really talk about my issues or feelings, I like to work it out in my head first and then ill possibly talk about it with friends and family. The Decision that I have to make is whether or not I should go back to work, recently my previous employee contacted me and asked to meet. During our meeting she asked if I was able to come back to work, and what would it take for me to come on board. We went through a few "MC" criteria and then a proposal was drafted up. I had the weekend to think about it and decide if this something I was going to say yes to.

My problem with making the decision isn't based on whether or not I should go back to work, it's with the type of work that I would be doing. It was really hard for me to make the decision to leave, even though I was quite unhappy, I just have such a hard with quitting things and knowing when its time walking away. I'm worried that if I go back, I'll just fall back into the same unhappy place I was before I left. I haven't put any effort in to finding work, partly cause I've been busy with Blogging and Designing and well just enjoying life but life is expensive, I've never been one to go without, I love money, it's probably my biggest motivator and its why I put up with all the craziness of work!  As I get older I realize that money can't make you happy, I mean money has its perks don't get me wrong but it's not worth your personal health and happiness! I'm worried that if I do go back to work, all things I'm currently working on will take the back seat and I fear that ill be putting effort into something that doesn't really matter to me and neglecting the things that do.

Anyway, I have to make my decision today, so I'll give you an update later on with what I decided todo! How do you guys make those "Big" decisions, do you have anything that helps you? My Biggest issue is with knowing whether or not I'm making the "Right" decision!

Photos By: Tim White

Skirt: Aritzia, Blazer: Thrifted (similar linked below), Bag: Forever21 (similar linked below), Vest: Thrifted (similar linked below), Sunglasses: Zara, Shoes: Asos (similar linked below)

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